Live Everyday Like It Is Your Last

Scarlet myth

2010-11-11T19:44:00.004+08:00

When u are in my profession long enough, you would have heard the phrase 'you're hot,you're so jonah'...

It is never meant to be a compliment

Instead, in my profession, if a person tells u that you are hot, it does not physically means u have a hot bod like Jessica Alba. It simply means, when you are on duty, there will be a lot of patients, a lot of incidents...a lot

It's weird, but there are really certain people who are generally HOT. Whenever they are working, the wards will be full with patients, there will be unstable cases, desaturation, you name it, they've got it

And there are people who are labelled as 'cold'. And true enough, you can happily have a good night's sleep if you happen to be on duty with them overnight

And there is the myth about wearing red

Now, this myth, i was kinda skeptical about it.

I mean, there is no scientific proof definitely

Only God knows why we should't wear red during oncalls.

This myth, passed down from generations before me, state that 'Thou shalt not wear red, or thou shalt perish'

No red means no red shirts/ pants/ jacket/ socks/ shoes/ bra/ panties/ boxers/ briefs...

Even if your fiery red undies are concealed under thick layers of black clothing, it will shine through....

I am generally a neutral person... my calls are quite unpredictable

Now i am at accident and emergency, where sometimes, you won't want too many things to happen at the same time

I had been having pretty good shifts lately...i mean, hell, i was able to lepak at the canteen too...

So yesterday, before i went for my night duty, i, for God knows what reason, decided to put on a red t shirt... In order for me not to be cursed by all my paramedics, i concealed my t shirt under an all black sweater...

And, the red took effect. I had the worst call ever. Basically, it was a small disaster at the casualty...i had 7 patients who came in with different injuries of different magnitude, all from the same accident...it was bad, and now i believe that no way you should wear red during your duty, seriously, no way...

Red= danger

Red=critical

Red=emergency

Red=bloody

Red=devil

Red= hot hot HOT

*but i like red*

Get Fuzzy

2010-11-09T09:28:00.002+08:00

Sentimental

2010-11-08T08:59:00.004+08:00

I used to be a sentimental person

I could be studying or solving a math problem, and when i hear a melody i like, i stopped and listen with my whole heart.Beautiful melodies made me cry. They bring out the emotions buried deep inside. It could be so overwhelming that for a moment, nothing else matters...

When the rain pours, i sat by the window watching the raindrops racing each other on the windowstill... they used to fascinate me as a child... i cheered the raindrops on, watching them merge with each other and became a bigger self. I watched the trees swaying left to right in a storm.... and stray dogs seeking shelter under vehicles

I kept a few diaries during my teens... jotted down every emotion i experienced day to day... the angry strikes when i quarreled with my mum almost tear the page apart... the teardrops that made everything on the page blurred...the smiles and palpitations from an innocent teenage crush... reading back my diaries, i was suddenly saddened by the fact that i am no longer such an expressive person anymore...

When i was a kid, my parents' arguements scared me (now i know that arguements are perfectly normal for a couple)...i hid in my room and cried myself to sleep... then write letters to both my parents telling them my lil opinions... i would stuffed the letters into their wallets, put on the dressing table and hope that they will find it, read it and never talk to me about it...

Time flies, people grow out of old habits...

I, i hardened

Maybe when you grow up, and life is not as simple as how you imagined it to be, being sentimental is the last thing you wanna do...

When you are tired from work, and mad at your boss

When you don't have close friends anymore, and being far from home

When you barely have time for yourself, and simple things in life does not seemed to please you anymore

When you know you chosed a difficult path in life...

You hid your emotions, put on a mask like everyone else

You know that you can't waste your time thinking about the past

You need to clock the hours at work, and you need to be professional

That's what i did...

and i miss myself

So today i sat in front of my window, and i watched the rain fall

I listened to some good old songs, and i gave myself time to think, to reminiscence

I let the teardrops fall, and acknowledge the complicated feelings inside

And i typed this post... something i had not done for a long time

And man, it feels good.

*i will be ok*

One Year

2010-08-13T09:23:00.002+08:00

Yipee!!!

Can't believe it but i survived my first year housemanship!

Quite a smooth sail, if u ask me...

Accident and Emergency posting mark the start of my second year housemanship, and i must say, so far, so goooooood....

Really loving the adrenaline rush and team work in the department... of course, having great colleagues helped too...

Well, just dropping by to post this super short post... will continue soon! and i mean it! haha...

*stop procastinating kwi sing!!*

Bad Skin Days

2010-03-30T21:07:00.002+08:00

Crap... am having really bad skin days...

My skin has always been sensitive and pimple prone...

Now it is just getting worst...

Maybe I am just not taking good care of it...

Crap

Totally crap...

8 Months- Part 1

2010-03-28T19:30:00.002+08:00

Has it been 8 months?

8 months since I started working as a houseman at HQE

8 months since a new chapter of my life begun

Housemanship is actually not as tiring as I thought it was gonna be

Thanks to the over production of med graduates everywhere

Basically every department of all major hospitals are flooded with HOs..

47 HOs in paeds department... LOL...

We don't really hang around jobless in the ward... but the opportunities for procedures are much blunted...

I started my housemanship wtih surgery posting

Surgery has not always been my favorite subject since med school... there is just something about it that I just can't 'get it'

Plus, i shall quote my dear father, who always always tell me " Girl, I don't think u are cut out to b a surgeon u know... someday you will leave a scalpel or something like that in a patient's abdominal cavity ... bcoz u are just too absent minded and clumsy.." LOLZ....

Turns out, I did enjoy my surgery posting and had a great 4 months in the department

Was kinda fond of the subject in the end..

I guess I had quite a good working environment, despite having to drive between 3 different hospitals for my work... and kena saman for parking illegally....hahaha...

Surgery department of HQE is just a happy place to be...

No surgeons from hell... and my boss is niceeeeeee

Hm... I learnt quite a lot in the posting...

Did my appendicectomies, intubations, central line insertions, chest tubes...

It was fun...

I enjoyed the rush of adrenaline the most...

I loved being in the acute ward where all the actions happen

Psychotic me (@>o<@)

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My convocation took place in the last 8 months too...

was around my birthday... which means somewhere near 14th October

It was the first time my parents came to KK

(DUH they had not visited me during my 5 years of med sch in KK... okok i think my mum came with her students once somewhere during my 1st year... but that doesn't count..hehe)

I got my first pay during that time and managed to give my family quite a good time in KK

They were here for i think 3 days... nothing much to do in KK

But we stayed in Le Meridian Hotel and it was a fabulous place to stay

My grandma came too...

and of course my sister

Convocation is not fun at all

Trust me

It is so so boring

I guess the exciting thing about it is the part where we get to wear the robes and get our scrolls

But the waiting part is the worst

and of course the chaos of looking for your missing family when you got out from the main hall...

Chaos chaos...

But well, i think it was a significant event of my life

and for my family as well =)

It was good to meet up with my old frens but we didn't have the chance to really catch up with each other

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Oh well, those are just the tiny weeny parts of my 8 months here as a HO

Not gonne write too much here in this post... gonna get boring..hahaha...

Will update and write real soon... !

My darlings

2009-12-27T21:14:00.009+08:00

Had a great week in my thalassemia room
Special thanks to all these kids for putting a smile on my face!
To Mysarah, Rohead, Nazura, Elisia, Pooja and the rest of my adorable darlings
Merry christmas and get well soon!!

A time to celebrate

Merry Christmas!

2009-12-26T22:03:00.002+08:00

Can't believe it had been that long...

The last entry i made in this blog was in July
And now the year is coming to an end...

Been working for 5 months+ d...
Everything seemed to be a blur
Already i had completed my surgery posting for 4 months, did my appendicectomies and now in paediatrics department

Had not been able to write a decent blog entry for months... hehe...

Well, just here to wish everyone a merry christmas!
I'm off to sleep now...slept only 3 hours last night during my oncall...

will upload more post soon!!

KA-CHING!

2009-07-10T21:16:00.004+08:00

You know how it is like when you gotta start anew, whether it is starting school, starting a new semester, starting work etc, and you need to buy new things?

KA-CHING!
All new things are shinny and nice...
But when you are forced to buy something just for some 6 day kursus, all you can hear is the weeping sound of your bank account

Sigh
Because of the stupid dress code of my BTN, I actually HAVE to buy LONG BLACK SKIRT, LONG SLEEVE T SHIRTS, LONG SLEEVE WHITE SHIRT that I know I ain't gonna wear them again... Ok maybe the white shirt will come in handy but definitely NOT the long black skirt

I phoned the organizing committee that day to clear my confusion

Me : Kak, dalam surat tu tulis kena pakai skirt panjang warna hitam
She : Ya betul, ikut surat saja
Me : Kalau pakai seluar slacks hitam panjang tak boleh ke
She : Tak boleh la... untuk induksi boleh tapi BTN kena pakai skirt

....

What kinda silly rule is this
I really wanna ask her what is the rationale behind it

Anyway I finally bought all my stuff today at Jusco
After testing on the white shirt and black long skirt, I only got one thing in my mind
I look like a choir singer
The picture is so ugly that I refuse to upload it here
There goes my plan to buy a new bag

Oh ya THANK GOODNESS I already got a pair of black shoes from Clarks that I bought some time ago when I have the money to spend
If not, I think I will really conduct a funeral for my bank account d
Dah lah now I already got no funds from PTPTN
Sigh

KA-CHING!!!!!!

I need money... desperately

The truth about getting old

2009-07-09T20:54:00.002+08:00

I'm getting old
Not just physically, but mentally as well
Sombody said to me, you are not getting old, you are getting older

I noticed it when the way I view things are no longer the same

When I can have an intellectual talk about politics with my family and friends

When the books I read are evolving from chic lit to autobiography

When the section in newspaper that interest me is no longer the entertainment section

When I find the Gotcha calls boring and stupid

When I am no longer interested in the personal lives of other people

When I prefer to spend more quality time with people I care about

When I begin to take interest in the discovery channels and news

When I stop penning down in my diary every single small details of my life , and start writing more about things I think about

When I narrow down my social circle to just a few people that matters

I can definitely say that I am much more mature now

The thing is, when I look at teenagers nowadays, with their colourful attire and love for soft toys and boys, do I feel envious?
The answer is that I do, I really do

I had always felt that the best years of my life was when I am still a secondary school student
I feel sad that I can no longer return to those days
Those days when life ain't so complicated and everybody is your friend

I wish I can be a teenager again is what I kept telling myself
This is kinda ironic, because when I was 16 I can't wait to grow up and have a car and a job

Recently, I read a book call Tuesdays with Morrie, by Mitch Albom (who also wrote The Five People You Meet In Heaven and For One More Day)
I won't review the whole book here in this post but there is this particular chapter about dealing with aging

7 pages, and it gave me great insight to the reality of aging
I am not as old as Morrie, who was way past 70 in the book
But every word in that chapter brought realization to myself

I have not yet reach the stage that I fear aging, but to some extent I tend to keep looking back and being drawn to the life I had, instead of focusing on the life I have

All younger people should know, if you're always battling against getting older, you're always gonna be unhappy

This is a statement from the book
And it is so true
I realised that I had been a teenager once
I had my time and experience of being the ignorant and innocent self
Now is my time to be in my mid twenties, to work, to earn money, and maybe to have my own family
I have to keep looking forward, and find what is good and true and beautiful in my life now

Oh god I sound so old... >_<
Haha... reading a book like this always makes me think too much

Yes I am getting older, more mature, maybe wiser
But I know part of me will always be young at heart, especially my love for silly cartoons =)

How can I be envious of where you are, when I've been there myself? (Tuesdays With Morrie, Mitch Albom)

Induksi and BTN

2009-07-07T13:07:00.005+08:00

My letter for induction finally came today...

After much waiting... and waiting... and waiting...

Kursus Induksi Dan Kenegaraan
Tarikh: 19 hingga 24 Julai 2009
Tempat: Teluk Batik Resort, Lumut, Perak

PERAK

Now THAT is far... Still wondering how am I gonna get to that place...
Anyway I am really having these mixed feelings now

Sad that my holidays are gonna end soon, really soon
Excited that I'm finally gonna join the working force
Scared when I think about which hospital I'm gonna get, I want KK, please!!!!!

Sigh... Mixed feelings

Anyway I am still waiting to hear from my other friends... Hopefully we all get the same place together

Oh and another thing, these kinda kursus usually have those stupid dress code thingy

Keperluan and peralatan kursus modul kenegaraan:
- Blaus putih lengan panjang
- Kain/ skirt panjang berwarna hitam
- Baju kurung putih

Wow we will really be looking like a bunch of waiters and waitresses

Looks like I will be needing to buy some stuff for my kursus... LONG BLACK SKIRT
Alamak
I hope I can find skirt that is long enough for me =)

Lastly, we will be sitting for exams during this kursus...
Exams...things about our country's history, dasar utama, program pembangunan negara etc etc
ALAMAK!
It's like pengajian am all over again

Wish me luck!

不喜欢

2009-07-06T12:22:00.002+08:00

我是一个很容易tension的人

我

不喜欢别人迟到，因为我的时间观念很龟毛

不喜欢人挤人的地方，因为我会呼吸困难

不喜欢在满满的停车场里找位子，因为我的parking skills真的很差

不喜欢驾快车，因为我会很紧张

不喜欢那些把公路当作赛车场的drivers，因为他们不顾别人的安全

不喜欢塞车，因为我会头痛

不喜欢在店铺里紧紧跟着我的salesgirl，因为我买东西不需要一只哈巴狗

不喜欢没有礼貌的服务人员，因为我是消费者

不喜欢在深夜开车，因为我在夜晚的视线不是很好

不喜欢爱管闲事的人，因为我有我的私人空间

不喜欢装可爱的人，因为看了很恶心

不喜欢整天emo的人，因为心情会被破坏

不喜欢在公共场所抽烟的人，因为要早死的人是你不是我

今天的我有很多抱怨，请原谅我的不喜欢

The Five People You Meet In Heaven

2009-07-01T21:37:00.004+08:00

I love reading
My taste is constantly changing, and I read different types of books depending on my mood
Currently my mood is being set to 'thinking mode'
I like books that are thought provoking
Books that leave me thinking long after I finish it

The Five People You Meet In Heaven by Mitch Albom is one of those books.

It is a very small book
Only 231 pages long
I can fit that book into my white coat pocket... Coz it is the same size as my Sarawak Handbook of Emergencies =)

"All endings are also beginnings. We just don't know it at the time''

Eddie is the main character in this story, who died on his 83th birthday
In his afterlife he met with 5 person in Heaven, who are directly or indirectly involved in his life. They are there to answer his questions of his life, to change his thinking.

This book is written in very simple language
There are no fancy sentences, no bombastic words
Everything is easy to read, and easy to understand

As simple as this story is, it is nontheless a powerful book
There are many lessons to learn
I see it as a miracle book, written by a genius author
It imparts words of wisdom to its readers
This book is so fantastic that I simply cannot find the right words to describe it. And to describe more will be a spoiler for those who has not read the book before =)

This is a modern classic
I love it

"Each affects the other and the other affects the next, and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one" (The Five Person You Meet In Heaven, Mitch Albom)

My Favorite Book

2009-07-01T21:10:00.010+08:00

My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult

I randomly picked up this book 2 years ago at Popular bookstore in KK
I still remember that I just finished my end of posting exam and was gonna spend my one week holiday in KK itself. I needed something to read, to occupy my time

There was no particular reason that I chose the book

I finished reading it in 2 days time
The powerful words just kept me captivated, and I couldn't stop reading.

People, this is THE book to read

My Sister's Keeper

A story about love, responsibility, and about who is to judge what is right or wrong, about truth, about a mother's love
It is a mixture of medical facts, courtroom drama and family conflicts

This is my favorite book

"I want to sue them for the rights to my own body."

This is a story about Anna, a 13 year old girl who had one day decided to sue her parents. She was concieved as a bone marrow match for her sister who has leukemia. One day she suddenly wonder about her purpose of living...Is she as loved as her sister? Or is she just a vessel for her sister's living?

This book is amazing
This book is about moral dilemma
The storyline is tense, emotional and full of insight
It is a heartbreaking story and will leave readers with tears

I strongly recommend this book to anybody who is looking for something to read
Trust me, you will love the story

The movie is coming out soon this year... starring Cameron Diaz and Abigail Breslin
I read that the story will be altered, but still captivating as the book
I hope I won't be disappointed by the movie coz was anticipating it since the announcement of its making

My Sister's Keeper is a must-read, trust me

"I take her with me, wherever I go" (My Sister's Keeper, Jodi Picoult)

Final Destination?

2009-07-01T13:12:00.004+08:00

Ever watched the movie 'Final Destination'? It was a movie made in the year 2000, when I was form 4.

In the movie, this guy and his friends managed to escape a fatal plane crash because he had some kinda premonition. They cheated death, or they thought so... until death found them. They were all killed one by one, in a sequence that they were supposed to die if they were on the plane.

It was kinda freaky. So they are all destined to die.
The poster of the movie read ' YOU CAN'T CHEAT DEATH'

Anyway, remember Air France Flight 447 that crashed into the Atlantic ocean on 1st June 2009?
Johanna Ganthaler and her husband, both Italians, were on holiday in Brazil and were supposed to be on the doomed Flight 447. They arrived late at the airport and missed the flight. They were very lucky to be alive.

A week later, this couple was involved in a car accident.
Johanna was killed on the spot.
Her husband, seriously injured.

FREAKY!!!!!! This is so FREAKY!!!!!
And creepy too

Final Destination in real life??????

When I read the news, my eyes nearly popped out of my socket.
Everybody was talking about how lucky both of them were, to escape the horrible plane crash. But in the end... Oh my I just don't know what to say...

May Johanna and all the other 228 victims of the crash rest in peace

唱k

2009-06-30T22:44:00.002+08:00

刚和鸿国飚歌回来。

我们两个今天还真的是唱歌唱到‘笑’

本来我们的配套是从三点唱到五点半，但因为今天比较少人，所以redbox竟然让我们唱到九点！！！

两个疯子，两只麦克风，6小时non stop 飚歌
结果是两个喉咙痛的人！

我好久没唱歌了，当然对现在流行的歌曲完全不知所谓
所以鸿国说，为了庆祝我隔了那么久再次唱歌，我们就专唱04年前的歌。。。
因为我04年进大学之后就几乎不听华文歌曲了

结果我们还真是连陈淑桦，熊天平的歌都拿来唱
超级过瘾的！
6小时的时间，足够我把梁静茹的歌几乎全部都唱完。。。哈哈
鸿国唱了很多，我们也合唱了不少次。。。最好听的和音竟然是cornetto歌最后一句！哈哈！

爽！！

鸿国啊，你真的应该去参加歌唱比赛哦
我会成为你一号粉丝！呵呵

我爱唱K!

On a Johor public holiday...

2009-06-30T22:17:00.012+08:00

Was out with my old pals on Monday...coz it was a public holiday here in Johor...
Hong Kok, Vivian, Me and Kelvin
It had been a while since we all meet together...
We had our lunch at Nando's @ Tebrau City coz it looks comfy... good location for us to sit and chat. Basically it was a good gathering... Lots of gossips and laughter.

Hong Kok never wanna smile when he is on camera... so we decided to play along

Me and Viv... She is so pink and I am so dark

I have no idea what dish is this but it taste pretty alright and looks interesting. But kinda reminds me of those horror movie where the hook can be used as a weapon ...

Anyway, I thought this was a chicken without a head.
I was a bit curious at first coz was wondering the reason behind the missing chicken head.
My logic was:
Nando's sells chicken
This thing looks like a chicken body
Therefore this thing = chicken

I bodoh went and ask my pals why this chicken got no head.

Their response was first silence...then hysterical laughter
Coz it was a chilli.
NAN DESKA????

Yeah it does look like a chilli instead of a decapitated chicken....my bad...

Anyway it was a great outing... Hope we can go out again!!!!

We are all grown ups now!

Thunder and Broken Sorrow

2009-06-30T10:41:00.002+08:00

无聊的我

2009-06-29T10:39:00.002+08:00

我生病了！

已经好久没生病了。。。最后一次应该是在半年前。

其实都是老爸啦，把病毒传染给全部人。。。哈哈
妈一直都说如果家里老爸生病，全家一定中招，无人幸免

这次也不例外
先是老爸，然后妹，然后妈咪，然后本来对自己免疫系统相当自豪的我，最后也中了。。。
唉，应该不是H1N1吧。。。

也许那天晚上出门冷到了。。。哈哈

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最近房间出现了一只烦死人的壁虎
不止每天叽叽叫个不停，还到处乱大便

它越来越猖狂了
简直是不知死期将到

烦死人的壁虎先生，我正式向你下战书
我们拼了！

今天要出门哦！

快乐

2009-06-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

快乐的周末

因为。。。

和老友相聚
看了场电影
去没到过的地方
被请了三顿饭
哈拉哈拉
简单的快乐 (@^o^@)

因为。。。

睡到十二点
吃secret recipe
和小小baby玩
逗表弟笑
家庭聚会
听好听的歌
简单的快乐 (^o^)

做人简单就好

简单
也有简单的快乐

这个周末，快乐的我

Nuttin' But Stringz

2009-06-28T12:34:00.000+08:00

Was watching America's Got Talent on TV yesterday.

Wanted to search for a martial arts group call the Sideswipe on Youtube coz their performance was awesome.

Instead me and my sis came across this violinist duo called Nuttin' But Stringz.

I like instrumental music
I like hiphop
I like classical music
I like jazz
Therefore when instrumental + hip hop + classical + jazz
The result is FREAKIN' AWESOME MUSIC!!!!!

These two brothers are just so talented
Two thumbs up for Damien and Tourie Escobar (I would have given them 10 thumbs if i have... but then that will ultimately make me a freak myself)

The song 'Thunder' was featured in their first album... Fantastic music...
I wanted to upload it here but there are some html errors ... sigh

Anyway I listened to a couple of their songs on Youtube and fell in love with the songs including 'Dance With My Father', 'Broken Sorrow' and 'Suka 4 her'...

I am officially declaring that I am gonna try to get their albums!!!!!!!!!!

I love violin!!!!

Red Tape

2009-06-26T14:40:00.000+08:00

Being recruit into the government service is a hassle.

Lots of red tape...

A simple medical checkup can be complicated like hell.
Things are actually very simple, but the system makes it difficult...

When I recieved my Suruhanjaya Perkhidmatan Awam letter, I was over the top. Finally I can get things done after such a long wait...

Among the things needed to be done is the medical check up.
I thought it is gonna be fast and easy. Coz the form is basically very simple.
BUT I WAS WRONG.

I first went to Klinik Kesihatan Kempas coz it is a bigger place and there is an x ray department there.
On my first visit the nurse told me to come early the next day, say about 8am.
On the second visit the registration ppl told me I can't do my medical checkup there because my postcode belongs to Skudai, and I need to go to Klinik Kesihatan TUTA. I tried to reason with them, saying that I am already here and it is more difficult for me to go to TUTA.

But no, the nurse said that their clinic is overloaded with patients and even if she put me through, the doctors will be complaining.

I brought my document to Klinik Kesihatan TUTA.
Horrible place.
It is located in a shoplot, about 2 units big.
The space is so small that I felt suffocated.
Worse, there was no place to sit and wait that I ended up sitting on an abandoned gurney.
Finally the nurse got me to do some simple tests, but I was told that I can only see the doctor after 2 weeks because of the urine drug test that they need to send.

Well it was acceptable.
But then, I was told to do my x ray at Hospital Sultanah Aminah.
So on day three I drove all the way to town, got lost in the hospital, and finally gotten my X ray done.
The x ray need a formal reporting from a radiologist. And apparently it takes about 3 days.
So I was told to leave my x ray there and collect it next week.

Last night my friend told me we need to go and see a dentist for one of the small section in the medical report. Her doctor refused to sign for that section because 'checking for dental carries is under dental care, not medical care'.

WTH???!!!!!

My friend said that initially she went to Klinik Kesihatan at Putrajaya and was told to come back in 3 months time because they are too booked.
Is this acceptable?????

Now that I can't do anything about it, I just hope that my drug test will come back on time and I won't be going for my induction until everything is done.

Cross my fingers and toes

I'm Officially Registered!!!!!

2009-06-26T14:30:00.000+08:00

Congratulations to me!!

I've finally gotten my MMC temporary registration number!!!

Was kinda worried I won't be getting it early coz of my stupid faculty who sent in our documents late... but now, at least I got one less thing to worry about...

One down, many more to go...>_<

Is This True????

2009-06-26T10:28:00.000+08:00

My sis just told me, Michael Jackson had passed away last night...

Heart attack, the media reported.

Is this true? How shocking this is to the whole world...

He had been a legend, and although I had never been a fan of him nor his nose, I do like his music.
He had been a man of controversy, always in the headlines for the wrong reason since a few years back.

I still can't believe he is gone...

Life is really unexpected

Life is fragile, you never know what's gonna happen next

我是兼职全职家庭主妇！

2009-06-26T10:00:00.000+08:00

别慌张，我还没结婚。。。呵呵

自从放假以后，我在家中的生活真得很写意
是什么样的写意呢？
简单的说，我最近发福了。。。超讨厌的啦

我每天在家过着简单的生活。
一早起来，先是洗刷干净，喝杯咖啡，慢慢地看报纸
接着，打扫屋子，洗衣晒衣。。。有时很多家务要做时，反而觉得快乐，比较充实。
看见干干净净的屋子，很有满足感哦。

当个家庭主妇，也有要上超市的时候。要想一想晚餐煮什么，需要些什么日用品。。。
打包午餐回来给正在放假的小妹也是大伤脑筋的一件事。因为，每天都不知该吃什么才好。。。
下午没什么事做，就小睡一下 zzz

醒来后又是开始忙碌的时候了
煮晚餐很简单吗？其实不然。
光是准备食材就必须花上很长的一段时间。
煮完过后还得把锅子洗刷干净，把厨房整理好，把地拖一拖。

这时的我，早已油光满面，头发也乱七八糟的。
吃晚饭，收拾碗碟，洗个澡，一天的工作才结束。

我老妈真伟大。

身为副校长，每天六点半就出门，下午三点才回家。
回家后马上就开始准备晚餐，打扫屋子。。。
妈咪，我知道你真得很累。。。
以前不懂事，老是要妈咪唠唠叨叨，最后才很不甘愿地帮忙。。。

我长大了，乖了。。。
谢谢您，伟大的妈咪！

也谢谢我的小妹，在我忙碌的时候帮忙打扫!

The Young and The Carefree

2009-06-26T09:36:00.000+08:00

These pics were taken when I was in second year =)

Preclinical years are boring... very boring

There is nothing worst than sitting in a classroom listening to the lecturers ranting away from 8am to 4pm...

I never really listened anyway =p

My biggest joy was to fool around with my equally nonsensical friends. I still remember a game that we played call 'battle of the chairs'. Poor chairs. Those comfy pink chairs with wheels... We each sat on a chair and cruise around the classroom trying to catch the other person... And poor Emily usually will crash into the wall, an act that is a favorite of Ian Hung.

Come to think of it, it's kinda like primary school

I used to take a lot of pictures randomly when I was in preclinical years. Looking at those pictures just bring back the smile on my face... I guess I really played too much, coz my results were not that good back then...haha... But no regrets here

Thanks to Emily and Ian Hung, who never fail to create a playground in our serious classroom
Hip Hip Hooray to all the right sided backbenchers!!

Our favorite hobby in class: Sleep

奋斗

2009-06-25T22:21:00.000+08:00

前阵子一位大学朋友突然在msn要请我帮忙他的部落格写entry.

我和他并不深交，平时也没什么交谈。他是我大二时认识的一位男生，是civil engineering的学生。我对他印象深刻，是因为他曾经追过我的室友。大三时因为都在医院上课，也就没再和他见面。

去年八月，他毕业了，戴上四方帽，笑眯眯的照片摆在friendster上。虽然当时我有去参加鸿国的毕业典礼，也看到了他，却没上前给予祝福。

几个月后，网上开始流传一件让人震惊的消息。这位男生，患了血癌，leukemia。就读医学系的我相当惊讶，有点不敢相信。我浏览了他的blog,看见他和癌症奋斗的故事。一直都在想，他现在怎么样了。

他坚强了，人在生死关头徘徊过，活下来后更加了解生命的宝贵。这位男生成功进入remission,也就是说，他战胜了血癌。现在的他，非常开朗，很积极地想帮助癌症患者。他不仅成立了自己的小小协会，也到处去办活动，希望公众能对癌症患者有正面的想法，也希望患者们能勇敢面对自己的人生。

他找上我，是希望我能以医生的身份，帮他的blog写一些entries，鼓励公众。

听到他这番话，我心中有着莫名的感动。
他还那么年轻，经历过这样的事，却能很积极地去面对。

我觉得好愧疚。

我的奶奶五年前因鼻癌过世。
我的外公四年前因肺癌过世。
我身为医务人员，却没有因此对癌症更加关心，反而觉得癌症是一科很冷们的科系，太难懂了。

我答应了这位朋友，会加入他，尽我全力帮助他。
心里其实是有点害怕的。
不知道能为他写些什么，做些什么。。。

但是，我会尽力的
相信我

谢谢你，那么抬举我。。。你要加油

Oh my gosh!

2009-06-25T21:09:00.000+08:00

Came across this picture collage that I created a while ago.

Oh my gosh what was I doing?????

Can you guess what is that part that I was kissing?

Anatomical name : Gluteus maximus
Layman term : Butt

OH MY GOSH!!!

Well thinking back on that particular day I think me and my coursemates really had a lotta fun in the supposedly serious and quiet Bilik Ibnu Sina. We were first year med students who had nothing better to do. A bunch of us raided the room and tortured the poor mannequins... Sorry my mannequins... We were too young to appreciate you...hehe...

But it was a really fun day... and although kissing a butt isn't entirely a very pleasant thing to look at, I do love this pic... haha...

I was 19, and it is acceptable to be crazy... (@^0^@)

How are you my friends?

Useless faculty part I

2009-06-24T21:58:00.000+08:00

I am officially declaring, I HATE my faculty...
For those who doesn't know, I am the alumni of School of Medicine, Universiti Malaysia Sabah.
When i first joined the school 5 years ago, the administration was bad. But it was forgivable, for our school is relatively new (I was the second batch of guinea pigs~). Students were the victims of the disorganized staff.

5 years. And everything is still the same.

An infant become a toddler in 5 years.
A teenager become an adult in 5 years.
A med student become a doctor in 5 years.
5 years, a VERY long time for a person to learn, to change, to correct their mistakes.

But unfortunately, our faculty staff are forever trapped in the past. They never learn.
5 years ago we had a problem with our loan (PTPTN) because the faculty did not send our results to the university administration. The reason was that our system is different and we do not have 2 semesters per year like the other students.

We repeatedly complain to the staff 'abang, kami ni ambil PTPTN, kena hantar result setiap semester. Kalau tidak hantar nanti kami tak dapat loan untuk tahun seterusnya... Setiap semester pun mesti hantar ya...'

'Ya ya ya' is the usual reply. Or, better still 'Sorry la dik problem ni bukan saya punya cawangan, kamu kena pergi tanya siapa-siapa yang in charge tu. Tapi saya pun tidak tau siapa orang tu'. WTH. There were only less than 200 students, with a total number of 10 staff. 10 staff and you can't remember their departments?

Well, the story does not end here.
Because for the next 5 years that i was in the university, we had to face the EXACT same problem EVERY SINGLE YEAR. I simply can't understand their way of working. The person in charge has not been changed, the system is still the same, the complaints are the same. So why in the world can't they learn???????????

Even the lady working in PTPTN was pissed off. She too was fed up with our constant problems.

When i finally left the faculty one month ago, i was just soooooooo relieved. For I thought I am finally free of the problems caused by their laziness or whatever it is. But I was wrong.

Well, the story is that I am eligible for a scholarship from PTPTN because my result is in the category of first class honors. But as a medical student, our results are not categorized. For us there is only 'pass' or 'fail'. In order for me to obtain the scholarship, the faculty has to send a letter to PTPTN for me, stating that my result is equivalent to first class honors, simple as that.

One month ago one of my other friend told me to phone a certain staff as she already told the staff (let's say....Miss S) about it and the Miss S promised to send for us. So when I called Miss S she was like 'Ha? Tak ada la dik... Itu masalah saya tak pernah dengar pun...baik kamu tanya balik Mr L'. But when we asked Mr L he said Miss S is in charged!

I was filled with anger and frustration that time. This is a $$ business and they better don't fool around with it. I decided then that I will go personally to the faculty and demand for the letter and SEND IT MYSELF. This is a 35 thousand ringgit scholarship and I am not gonna let them ruin it for me... The staff just cannot be trusted with important things... And I really can't understand it... Can you??

When will they learn?

Fickle Minded Me

2009-06-24T14:24:00.000+08:00

This is a brand new blog for me... I've decided to start off fresh again...to celebrate my brand new life.

My bf always said that I am the lifeform of Little Miss Fickle, somebody who just can't make up her mind... To a certain extent i do agree, coz i can be quite indecisive at times. He gave me several examples to highlight his point, and this is one of it.

Me : I feel hungry la...
Him : Eat la
Me : Dunno what to eat
Him : Mm what you feel like eating?
Me :Dunno what to eat...feel like want to eat everything
Him : How bout McD?
Me : Duwan la... just ate it few days ago
Him : So you dun want fast food?
Me : I guess
Him : So... eat char kuey tiow?
Me : Very far la
Him : Claypot yee mee? quite near
Me : Mm....can also
Him : What you mean? So you want it?
Me : Ok la...
Him : Ok I pick you up in 10 minutes time
Me : Ok...
(In the car)
Me : Eh duwan la
Him : Duwan what
Me : Duwan yee mee la... dun feel like eating it
Him : Then???
Me : We eat McD la
Him : ...
Me : ...
Him : I thought you duwan McD
Me : Ya la
Him : So??
Me : Never mind duwan eat la... Not hungry also
Him : ...
Him : ...

Well, this is how i am, most of the time... I just can't make up my mind, which is kinda annoying, even to me (and I drive my bf crazy)... That's why i hate making decisions whenever I go out with my friends (NEVER try asking me where to go or what to eat, you'll regret it)

In my profession I can't afford to be indecisive. But most of the time i am quite sharp in my work... Only my personal life is a mess...hehe...

I wish i won't be so indecisive...=)