Scarlet myth

When u are in my profession long enough, you would have heard the phrase 'you're hot,you're so jonah'...

It is never meant to be a compliment

Instead, in my profession, if a person tells u that you are hot, it does not physically means u have a hot bod like Jessica Alba. It simply means, when you are on duty, there will be a lot of patients, a lot of incidents...a lot

It's weird, but there are really certain people who are generally HOT. Whenever they are working, the wards will be full with patients, there will be unstable cases, desaturation, you name it, they've got it

And there are people who are labelled as 'cold'. And true enough, you can happily have a good night's sleep if you happen to be on duty with them overnight

And there is the myth about wearing red

Now, this myth, i was kinda skeptical about it.

I mean, there is no scientific proof definitely

Only God knows why we should't wear red during oncalls.

This myth, passed down from generations before me, state that 'Thou shalt not wear red, or thou shalt perish'

No red means no red shirts/ pants/ jacket/ socks/ shoes/ bra/ panties/ boxers/ briefs...

Even if your fiery red undies are concealed under thick layers of black clothing, it will shine through....

I am generally a neutral person... my calls are quite unpredictable

Now i am at accident and emergency, where sometimes, you won't want too many things to happen at the same time

I had been having pretty good shifts lately...i mean, hell, i was able to lepak at the canteen too...

So yesterday, before i went for my night duty, i, for God knows what reason, decided to put on a red t shirt... In order for me not to be cursed by all my paramedics, i concealed my t shirt under an all black sweater...

And, the red took effect. I had the worst call ever. Basically, it was a small disaster at the casualty...i had 7 patients who came in with different injuries of different magnitude, all from the same accident...it was bad, and now i believe that no way you should wear red during your duty, seriously, no way...

Red= danger

Red=critical

Red=emergency

Red=bloody

Red=devil

Red= hot hot HOT

*but i like red*

Get Fuzzy

Sentimental

I used to be a sentimental person

I could be studying or solving a math problem, and when i hear a melody i like, i stopped and listen with my whole heart.Beautiful melodies made me cry. They bring out the emotions buried deep inside. It could be so overwhelming that for a moment, nothing else matters...

When the rain pours, i sat by the window watching the raindrops racing each other on the windowstill... they used to fascinate me as a child... i cheered the raindrops on, watching them merge with each other and became a bigger self. I watched the trees swaying left to right in a storm.... and stray dogs seeking shelter under vehicles

I kept a few diaries during my teens... jotted down every emotion i experienced day to day... the angry strikes when i quarreled with my mum almost tear the page apart... the teardrops that made everything on the page blurred...the smiles and palpitations from an innocent teenage crush... reading back my diaries, i was suddenly saddened by the fact that i am no longer such an expressive person anymore...

When i was a kid, my parents' arguements scared me (now i know that arguements are perfectly normal for a couple)...i hid in my room and cried myself to sleep... then write letters to both my parents telling them my lil opinions... i would stuffed the letters into their wallets, put on the dressing table and hope that they will find it, read it and never talk to me about it...

Time flies, people grow out of old habits...

I, i hardened

Maybe when you grow up, and life is not as simple as how you imagined it to be, being sentimental is the last thing you wanna do...

When you are tired from work, and mad at your boss

When you don't have close friends anymore, and being far from home

When you barely have time for yourself, and simple things in life does not seemed to please you anymore

When you know you chosed a difficult path in life...

You hid your emotions, put on a mask like everyone else

You know that you can't waste your time thinking about the past

You need to clock the hours at work, and you need to be professional

That's what i did...

and i miss myself

So today i sat in front of my window, and i watched the rain fall

I listened to some good old songs, and i gave myself time to think, to reminiscence

I let the teardrops fall, and acknowledge the complicated feelings inside

And i typed this post... something i had not done for a long time

And man, it feels good.

*i will be ok*

One Year

Yipee!!!

Can't believe it but i survived my first year housemanship!

Quite a smooth sail, if u ask me...

Accident and Emergency posting mark the start of my second year housemanship, and i must say, so far, so goooooood....

Really loving the adrenaline rush and team work in the department... of course, having great colleagues helped too...

Well, just dropping by to post this super short post... will continue soon! and i mean it! haha...

*stop procastinating kwi sing!!*

Bad Skin Days

Crap... am having really bad skin days...

My skin has always been sensitive and pimple prone...

Now it is just getting worst...

Maybe I am just not taking good care of it...

Crap

Totally crap...

8 Months- Part 1

Has it been 8 months?

8 months since I started working as a houseman at HQE

8 months since a new chapter of my life begun

Housemanship is actually not as tiring as I thought it was gonna be

Thanks to the over production of med graduates everywhere

Basically every department of all major hospitals are flooded with HOs..

47 HOs in paeds department... LOL...

We don't really hang around jobless in the ward... but the opportunities for procedures are much blunted...

I started my housemanship wtih surgery posting

Surgery has not always been my favorite subject since med school... there is just something about it that I just can't 'get it'

Plus, i shall quote my dear father, who always always tell me " Girl, I don't think u are cut out to b a surgeon u know... someday you will leave a scalpel or something like that in a patient's abdominal cavity ... bcoz u are just too absent minded and clumsy.." LOLZ....

Turns out, I did enjoy my surgery posting and had a great 4 months in the department

Was kinda fond of the subject in the end..

I guess I had quite a good working environment, despite having to drive between 3 different hospitals for my work... and kena saman for parking illegally....hahaha...

Surgery department of HQE is just a happy place to be...

No surgeons from hell... and my boss is niceeeeeee

Hm... I learnt quite a lot in the posting...

Did my appendicectomies, intubations, central line insertions, chest tubes...

It was fun...

I enjoyed the rush of adrenaline the most...

I loved being in the acute ward where all the actions happen

Psychotic me (@>o<@)

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My convocation took place in the last 8 months too...

was around my birthday... which means somewhere near 14th October

It was the first time my parents came to KK

(DUH they had not visited me during my 5 years of med sch in KK... okok i think my mum came with her students once somewhere during my 1st year... but that doesn't count..hehe)

I got my first pay during that time and managed to give my family quite a good time in KK

They were here for i think 3 days... nothing much to do in KK

But we stayed in Le Meridian Hotel and it was a fabulous place to stay

My grandma came too...

and of course my sister

Convocation is not fun at all

Trust me

It is so so boring

I guess the exciting thing about it is the part where we get to wear the robes and get our scrolls

But the waiting part is the worst

and of course the chaos of looking for your missing family when you got out from the main hall...

Chaos chaos...

But well, i think it was a significant event of my life

and for my family as well =)

It was good to meet up with my old frens but we didn't have the chance to really catch up with each other

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Oh well, those are just the tiny weeny parts of my 8 months here as a HO

Not gonne write too much here in this post... gonna get boring..hahaha...

Will update and write real soon... !

My darlings

Had a great week in my thalassemia room
Special thanks to all these kids for putting a smile on my face!
To Mysarah, Rohead, Nazura, Elisia, Pooja and the rest of my adorable darlings
Merry christmas and get well soon!!









A time to celebrate